“F**k, I want to be sick…”

That's what I thought... It was supposed to be a reassuring scan, our second by Dr Z and our third since the positive result. But the scan didn't start that way. I managed to leave work by 12 so I could get home to pick up E. Our second scan with Dr Z was due …

Scan update

I realise after my last blog, many of you are keen to know the result. I don't want to leave you all hanging...... 😏 .......So  the scan was done by an experienced ultrasonographer at a GP practice open on the weekend. (In the UK most GP practices are closed on the weekend unless they have …

OMG!!!

It's been over a year since a wrote a post because I felt I had nothing to share and had enough of posting negative, miserable blogs. It was a tough time, E's sister had her second child and our 3rd IVF cycle hadn't worked. Then a few months later we tried a 4th miserable cycle …

“It’s a girl…”

I sit in bed whilst E cries uncontrollably and there is nothing I can do to console her. We've just found out her sister, who E is very close to has just given birth to her 2nd child. A girl.  E always wanted a girl. She has thought of names, but I don't want to …

‘Dear baby mine’

Thought I'd share the link to a BBC Radio 4 drama that played recently which E encouraged me to listen to.  Each episode is 15 mins long and there are 5 episodes. The drama is about the affects of infertility on a couple but interestingly the point of view is from a man with azoospermia, …